To admit or to blame? That is the question...

Why is blaming easier than admitting?
How come it is easier to blame someone than to look at ourselves and find fault.
I was quite different for a while last week.
Life was scary. My world was a scary place to be.
I had no clue about many things and that scared me.
So, by having myriad problems, my insecurities came out..

Well, let's just say I was not the nicest person.

Actually, I was a creature from hell. A very emotional creature from hell!

The problem is that I did not see that I was being different. I did not see how much of a hellish creature I was. I did not notice how demanding I was. I was blind to my selfishness….

It took me a long time to look into myself and see what I was doing and how I was different.
It took me a long time to see how I was making my guy's life horrible.

I was selfish and it took me a long time to realize it.

I blamed him for minor things he missed on his road to perfection. He would be absolutely perfectly understanding, patient, and kind.. and I was finding minor faults.

I was an unappreciative bitch!

Looking to myself and seeing how I was acting was hard. I did it, and I found that I was making my life, and my guy's life miserable.

By looking at what I was doing I realized that I was being unfair.
By looking at my behavior I was able to appreciate his behavior so much more.

I have learned that a lot of the times that we blame people for doing something wrong, it is actually a reaction to us being different.

My advice:
Look to yourself and see how you have instigated the changes in those around you!
Appreciate those who are trying to deal with you when you are being unappreciative and impossible to please.