Where have all the answers gone?

I wonder what life would have been like if I had gone down any other road. What if I made some other decision, would I be where I am today?
What about things like going to a different school? Would I be the person I am today? What if I never came to Egypt? How would that have affected me?

I wonder which decisions I've made along the way were the cause of pain I've endured.
Would I want to change any decisions I have made?
Would I be happier in any place other than where I am now? Is that possible? Would I have suffered more heartbreak and despair to get there?

Why am I only coming up with questions?
Why haven't I found an answer yet?

Where have all the answers gone?