"blah"

It has been a long time since I wrote anything here. I feel like I have nothing to say. I am tired of talking about how I miss my family. Work is ok.. but not spectacular. My students are lazy and careless and it drives me crazy. I feel like it is all pointless because I can't teach them when they couldn't care less. I taught a few of them. I guess I taught all of them something, but I feel like I did not teach them enough. I feel like I was not able to teach them to take pride in their work. I feel like I could not teach them to not fight each other...
Speaking of fighting...
I was telling a kid that he can't hit people to solve his problems. I was giving him the whole lecture about fighting being wrong and him having to find other ways to solve his problems... He asked me when it is ok to start fighting. I asked him what he meant... he said "I know fighting is wrong in year 1 and year 2, but when it is ok to start fighting again?" I told him that it is never ok to fight. He told me I am wrong because he saw men fighting with guns on the news and that it was ok. I told him they were soldiers and they were not fighting and .. and then I was lost for words. I told him that those were countries fighting and he is not a country and therefore he cannot fight. When he becomes a country he can fight.
It was wrong of me to do that... but what was I supposed to tell him?
Anyway, back to my "blah" feeling.. I am just not interested in anything now.
I am enjoying time alone more. I am starting to get worried because I am starting to prefer being alone as opposed to being with people.
I miss my niece and nephew and am starting to count down the days until I am back there with them....

and I am hoping this "blah" feeling goes away because I am bored of it!