Friday, February 22, 2008

Guilty of Murder... ?

I heard a story and it killed me. It chilled me to the core of my existance.
I know that the world is harsh and evil at times. I know that horrible things happen. I just never felt this connected to such harsh and horrible things.
A friend of mine told me a story about her brother... also a close friend of mine. She told me the story of how harsh this world was to him. She told me a story of how harsh his step-mother was to him.
She told me a story and broke my heart.
He was young. He should have been protected. He should have felt loved.
Instead he was violated.
His innocence was taken away from him.
He was young and he realized this is a harsh world. He was young and should have been playing and laughing.
Instead he was being touched.

She was one of the people who should have protected him. Instead she ruined his life.
She was touching a child. She was having sex with a child.
She killed his innocence. She killed his emotions. She killed his trust.
She killed him.

He tried to kill himself many times after that. He tried to kill himself many times because of that.

My friend told me this story and she cried.
My friend told me this story and I am crying now.

I have never wanted to kill or hurt someone as much as I want to kill and hurt this person.
I have met her before. I have eaten dinner at the same table with her. I witnessed her acting like she was human.

All I can think about is how sick she is.
All I can think about is how kids should be allowed to remain innocent and naieve.
All I can think about is how I think I could kill her.
All I can think about is how far I am willing to go to protect a child.

I have never had violent tendencies in my life... until I heard this story.
I have never been this worried that I would do something to a person if our paths ever crossed...

I feel like I can kill her.
I feel like I can kill anyone who hurts a child.

I do not like this feeling....

Friday, February 15, 2008

Sick...

Ugghhhh...

I am sick!

My body aches. I cannot move.
My head hurts. My eyes hurt.
I have a headache and it will not go away. Noise and light piss me off....
My nose is stuffy and runny at the same time.
I cannot eat.. eating makes me feel sick.
I feel sick because I am not eating.
I have a horrible cough.... Everytime I start coughing I begin to feel that I cannot breath.
Everything about this cold sucks ass!!!

Damn, I hope I get better soon because this is evil!!!