Measuring up...
What really matters to a person? What is the bigger picture we see? I know the things I want most in a person are the things I hate most in myself. The things I require of those around me are an intricate mix of qualities that I despise in myself and in people close to me. The degree that I hate it dictates it's place on my list of priorities.
It is scary that I measure people against a list of criteria created from hate. Is it fair to expect what I myself cannot give? Is it fair to want only what I cannot be?
Do I only want what I am not? Or do I have a whole other list of criteria that people must measure up to because I measure up to this list?
Do I want what I am and what I am not?
Is this fair?
Am I greedy?
WHy am I so scared that I found someone who is all that I am and all that I am not?
Why does that scare me so much??
Am I scared of this perfection? Why do I want to run and hide from perfection? Why do I want to run and hide from him?
I hope he doesn't let me run and hide!
posted by Nora @ 12:59 AM
3 Comments:
I hope so too.
nooo do not run away, he sounds perfect in every way and you shouldn't let him go... I bet he's a gr8 guy ;)
something just occured to me...
you wrote once a post about your parents getting or were on the verge of getting a divorce, do you think that's related? wanting to run away all the time... I'm no therpist :D it's just a thought
razam:
Thanks! ;o)
lonely twin:
I don't want to run away. Sometimes I get scared and just want to hide from the world though...
He is perfect in every single way, and that might be what is scary! He is a great guy.. I'll have to introduce you to him!! ;o)
Well, my parents did get divorced 18 years and 1 week ago. It did mess me up enough to be a possible cause of my wanting to run issue. Thanks for the insight..
You would make a great therapist... maybe you should really consider a change of major!!
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