Today I cried...

Today I cried....
Not the kind of tears I hate to shed, but the kind that remind me that life is beautiful. That testify that that loving and missing someone so much it hurts is actually a good thing.
Today I cried.. as I hung up with my sister.
My sister is a mother of two. She is an amazing mother. She is the kind of mother that has learned from all the fucked up things we have seen on our lives and she will be damned if any of that happens to her children. She is the kind of mother who is tired and overworked and running around all day.. but still loves the fact that she is a mother. Grateful that she has two children who wear her out and tire her.
She is also a great sister. She teaches me a lot about myself and life. She has a way of thinking that makes me value everything. Sometimes when I do not understand.. she still helps me value.
We spoke for about an hour today.. about so much, and about nothing at the same time. During this hour she ran from one child to the other satisfying their needs, hugging away their fears, teaching them things, enjoying them, and letting them know that they are awesome.
Her husband is in Iraq now. She is alone and she is doing it on her own. The fact that she is gone stops her from many things; it stops her from taking care of herself, stops her from getting a night's rest without fear for her husband, stops her from knowing she is doing a great job, stops her from watching the Colbert Report... but it does not stop her from raising two healthy and happy children.
Tina, I love you with all my heart. I am grateful that you are my sister, I have always been quite jealous at how amazing you are.. I have always wanted to be you... but now I am happy that are such a big part of my life.
Go, have fun, enjoy your children, enjoy motherhood, enjoy your messy home and trust me.. a messy home means you are a great mother... if youhave 2 kids and a clean home I can tell you that your priorities are in the wrong place.
Let them learn, laugh and explore.. and let them mess up their rooms as they do.....

I love you!
(Pound It!!)