My surreal surgery...

Well, An update from the last post.
I was in excrtiating pain. It was the worst pain I had ever been in. The pain was so bad that at times it was paralyzing.
I thought bed rest would make things better, but it didn't.
After 3 days in bed i could not move.

911 was called and the ambulance had to come. i was wheeled out on a stretcher because I could not move. The ride to the hospital in the amblance was scary.. but a lot less dramatic than it looks on tv.
I was brought to the emergency room and the doctor examined me.
He decided that I needed to be hospitalized over night. The next day the neurosurgeon came in to examine me. He walked out of the room and called a surgical staff to the hospital immediately. It turned out that i needed surgery right then and there. I did not know that he was arranging for everyone to come in. Next thing I know, the anesthelogist comes in and asks me to sign the papers authorizing complete anesthesia!
Holy shit... I started to freak out.
I felt like i could not breath... I was scared.
I had never been admitted into a hospital. I never needed to be hooked up to an IV. I never had surgery!! this was uncharted scary territory!
Well, they wheeled me downstairs and the process began.
I fell asleep and then woke up. I just remember waking up and everything being blurry. my cousin was talking to me and i could barely see it was him.

After the surgery there was an immediate difference in the pain. It hurt like hell, but still less than before the surgery.
I am still at the point where I cannot do anything alone, but I am hoping that I will have a fast recovery.

I feel stupid for letting things go so far. It is scary to think that I was almost paralyzed. It is scary to think that i did not care enough to get it fixed.
I am glad this happened while I was here in the US. I have no idea how things would have turned out had this happened in Egypt.
I need to stop not reacting to things. When things hurt i need to say so, I need to handle them. sitting in pain does not make me a hero... It makes me stupid and almost paralyzed!

So, now I am at home. I am trying to recover. It is painful, but I am hopeful.....