Pressure....
Things have gotten to me once again.
I really can't take it anymore.
My eyes are filled with tears and I am trying my hardest to fight them back.
I wanted desperately yesterday to talk to someone... I just need to let it all out.
I think I just need to cry.
I think I just need a shoulder to cry on.
I just need a non-judgemental person to listen to me.
A guy I do not know very well has offered to listen to me talk about it all....
I have been thinking of taking him up on his offer.
At the same time, I feel like I cannot tell anyone else. I feel like it has fucked up enough already.
Exactly 1 year ago life was great. I was happy. I was exactly where I wanted to be in life. I was enjoying everything. I was the most important person to myself.
I was happy.....
Today I am not like that. I am not happy. I feel alone. I feel like I am barely coping. I feel like I cannot deal with this much longer. I am scared.
Maybe these are the sick thoughts I was told I should keep to myself.
I am trying to force myself to not deal with what is going on in order to have something that resembles a normal life. The thing is that trying to act normal is draining me more. People are putting more pressure on me than I can deal with now.
Everybody, please leave me alone for a while!!!
Please!!!
posted by Nora @ 9:36 AM
8 Comments:
call me if you ever need to talk to someone... you know I'm always free
miss you
nora, if u need to cry, do that, it won't necessarily make you feel better, but keeping it inside won't help either... if u need to cry on some one's shoulder, it better be someone u know and u know won't judge u, and most importantly, someone u'd feel comfortable talking to afterwards... if u just need to talk to someone, a complete stranger can sometimes help, without the tears tho :)
and sweetie, what is normal anyways, be who u are, it has to be good, and could be much better than normal!!
Rabina ma3aki
Sumarai Girl:
I'll give you a call and we can hang out. Just felt bad being so depressing all the time babe!
:o)
Marvandmonas:
Miss you too.
Insomniac:
You are right about crying. I do not know why, but I feel like I have to hold it in. I am trying to decide if I really want to talk to anyone or not. A part of me does.. but a part of me thinks it is better not to.
Thanks babe.
don't worry bout it... you know I don't mind
Hi my Beautiful Daughter!
I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU!!!!!!xoxoxoox0x0x0x0
I know exactly how you feel, ride the wave of desparation till you've glided to safety.. that's what I do.. it's good to be left alone but it's sometimes not that great when people take you seriously and leave you alone indeed..
sumarai girl:
Thanks babe. I'll call you soon.
kathy:
I miss you and love you too.
will e:
Yeah, that is what I did. I rode the wave to the end. I feel better now. People did leave me alone a bit.. but they were still around.. so it was fine.
Thanks babe.
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