I will...
Why do I try to fit myself into everybodys' definition of perfect?
Why do I require myself to measure up to standards enforced by so many people?
- I will create my own definitions of perfection and only those are what I will strive for.
- I will only measure myself against my own standards.
- I will not be so afraid of anger. I won't always assume that people will leave me when they get angry. I'll let them be angry. I'll let myself be angry. I'll cool down and see how it goes.
- I'll know what I want. I'll define it clearly. I'll vocalize it. I won't be so willing to give up everything. I'll know how much I can compromise and I won't willingly always give more but at the same time I'll accept that compromise is ok and I will not feel deserted if I need to compromise.
- I'll stop apologizing for who I am and how I feel. If peope don't like me, I'll be ok. If people don't think I am perfect it doesn't mean that I need to try harder.
- I will define myself and I will not be a definition created by someone else.
- I will try to analyze myself more and try to constantly better myself.
- I will stop trying to please everybody.
- I will stop trying to run away from everything that is emotional.
- I will stop letting my emotions take control of me.
- I will let people do as much for me as I do for them.
- I will be honest with myself.
- I will take care of myself.
posted by Nora @ 7:33 PM
7 Comments:
Amen... I hear you sister!
Well Nora - I guess the reason why you didnt or werent able to do any of these things before is because you were afraid of something.. somehow.
Anyways, it is great that you feel that way & I wish you luck...
Cheers!
I am sure i was afraid of something.. my therapist thinks self esteem played a part too..
I guess everybody is fucked up in their own way...
:o)
Hopefully i will be able to un-fuck up myself!
You know Nora...
I wish I had was going to therapy - but here it seems to be they are a)unprofessional, b) bloody expensive, c) different mentalities & seriously I dont need any more people to judge me.
I dream of being a therapist one day...
Good Luck in Unfucking yourself up - but from the looks of it babe - you aint fucked up at all!
I always wanted to be a therapist too... I wanted to un-fuck up people...
Hahahahhah.. I don't look fucked up only because you do not know me well! ;o)
I can introduce you to a few people who probably feel different about me.
I am not psycho bitch kinda fucked up...
I am more the "carrying extra baggage" kind of fucked up!
I doubt I would see a therapist anywhere other than here in the states. I wanted to in Egypt, but they were too expensive and I felt they would be underqualified. I think that going to therapy is not an accepted thing to do there. People think that therapists are only for the crazy and the fucked up... and nobody in Egypt would admit to being either one!
I guess it is the same throughout the Arab world...
I saw enjoy being here and reading your blogs and your friends' blogs as well. Jade, really interesting blog you have there.....God bless the Internet....Gave people a channel to express how fucked up they are :-) Hey, I am not saying I am not fucked up too, but at least I now feel a lot better about myself :-)
good to do list... good luck...
well u know, ppl advice against anger but i think it beats being depressed, don't u?
and yeah, be who u are, not what ppl expect of you, cause either way they will have something to bitch about, ppl always do
anon,
:o)
Glad you like it, and I am glad my being fucked up is making you feel better about you being fucked up. Don't worry about it.. I think most people are fucked up in some way or another.
Insomniac,
I will need all the luck I can get.
I think that being angry is much better than being depressed.. I'll try it and see...
I always used to try to fit definitions of perfect created by people around it. I always tried to please everybody.. now I am adopting more of a "fuck it" attitude!
:o)
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