No more "former perfect guy"...

Ok, so some things have changed recently. Actually, not so recently... but whatever.

The "former perfect guy" is no longer former and no longer perfect.

We have decided to get back together and work though all the shit and try to make it work.
I have decided to set aside all my delusions and actually see him and this for what it is. So, with that said.. he is no longer called the "perfect guy". He is just "my guy"... oh wait.. "MY GUY". Have to use all caps because there are a million and one chicks a bit too flirtatious with him. He is mine bitches!! :o)

So, let's see... there were a few posts about him recently.. The guy I stood beside when he needed someone was him. (M & M I am going to have to disagree with your calling him a douche.. he is a bit nicer than that.)
The "friend" that came back to fix my car for me was also him. (See, I told you he was nicer than a douche.)

Anyway, I have never been in a relationship harder than this one. It is not hard because we disagree, it is hard because letting go of resentment from the first time around is not as easy as I thought it would be. It is hard because we are very much in love and very much trying to make it work. One of the hardest things for me is feeling not so great about us and seeing him do everything he can to make me feel better. I want to be able to do that too. I want to be able to give more to him... but right now I think it is my turn to take a bit. So, now it is hard more because we are both trying our hardest to keep the other person happy.
Ironically, it is hard but most of the time it feels effortless.
Well, not effortless... but I don't even know how to explain it anymore.

So, I am happy. I am trying. I am in love...
(and so is MY GUY)

So, wish us luck!