I love and hate tuna!!!

A random memory/thought...

I realized that I actually like the taste of tuna sandwiches... but I hate tuna sandwiches.
It is really weird and random.. and I actually don't know why I am telling you about this. I was thinking about this and I remembered something.
I was about 11 years old. My parents were going through a bitter divorce. My world was turned upside down and my heart was broken. My mom was in the hospital having surgery so my younger brother and I were left alone. We were staying home alone most of the time. I was 11 and he was 8. I was a very sheltered child and this was too much for me. Taking care of my brother, my schoolwork, my brother's school work, and my mom in the hospital was too much for me when I was 11.
I did not know how to do anything.
I remember trying to make tuna sandwiches for my brother and I. I opened the can of tuna, dumped it into a bowl. Threw some mayonaisse into the bowl, and then put on top of the bread.
I did not know that you were supposed to drain it. I really had no idea. So.. it was full of that oily water. When I put it onto the bread it just soaked the bread.
I remember crying in the kitchen because I wanted my brother to eat and I fucked up the sandwiches. I remember crying alone in the kitchen because tuna tasted so much better when my mom made it!

I think I hate tuna so much because to me it represents a time when my world was falling apart and my heart was breaking.